I lie awake
With brooding eyes, I lie awake
I lie awake at night thinking about all the blood spilled in my street alone
Everything they touch, they destroy
On the streets, on my way home
The whole town
People say, "it was not me, it was this place”
I fear for this place
I fear what's to come
Mistrust, love has gone behind
A world of hurt
Release me to the night
Ease the agony of these days
To see past my own revulsion and to open my heart
Are the stars out tonight?
I do not know if it is cloudy or bright
I lie awake
With brooding eyes, I lie awake
I lie awake at night knowing she is struggling
Struggling and carrying this guilt around
A trip around the sun, and she is still here
She is still her
I try and take care of her
There's something in knowing
You made a place people like to come back to
I try and take care of her
But I am just a kid
I forget things
I lie awake
With brooding eyes, I lie awake
I lie awake at night thinking how fetching she was
Her beautiful, perfect face
She would always find her way back to peace within her daily routine
In her nightly routine
Until she was entombed in it
They did not say any of that at the funeral
They did not say how welcoming she was
Her beautiful, perfect face
All that is left is the shape of it
“Take me with you”, I cried in my heart
“Take me. Drag me down like you did the others”
She seemed so small, at the end
She was gone long before she died
